5 Days Left

Waiting until the last week of my weight-loss ‘program’ to shed these unwanted pounds wasn’t the smartest thing to do. Friday is food day at work. The smell alone will make me salivate. Saturday I have a wedding to go to and you know what that means: Wedding Cake.

This is a good week to jog though. 60’s and 70’s each day with no rain. I’ve even asked for running shoes for my birthday (which is 3 weeks away). I feel like I’m getting better each day and I haven’t caused serious injury to myself yet so I may as well keep going. I want to get to the point where I can jog the entire 3 miles without stopping. This way, if I ever have to run from the police, I’ll at least have a fighting chance. 

The hardest part of all this honestly is just being at work. Most of my days are slow and normally I would pass the time by snacking. (I wonder how I got this fat? Haha). Now I just sit here. Occasionally I get up for a glass of water. I watch everyone bring in fast food and eat it at their desks. At least once a day they will stop in front of my cubicle and grab some chocolate out of the Halloween treasure chest that they put in our walkway. And I just sit here. I’ve found some solace in hot chocolate, but even that I have to be careful with.

I didn’t realize how much I ate until I’ve made myself refrain from it. I always had  snacks in my drawers or in the breakroom. Now I have a jar of peanut butter and a bunch of water flavor packets. It’s kind of depressing. Food makes things funner.

On the plus side, Gertrude’s last day is this Friday. I’ll work her area for a while until they find a replacement so that will keep me busy and less likely to snack. No one’s noticed my 16lb weight loss yet, but that’s ok. I think I probably just look less squishy but it’s probably hard for others to put their finger on that. I feel really good and that’s all tha t matters.

193. That is the magic number that I need to see Sunday. I will have finished my first goal, gotten a prize for losing 20lbs, and I’ll be at a weight that I haven’t been in for over 3 years. To be honest, I haven’t been under 190 in over 5 years so this might be a big breakthrough for me, assuming I am able to keep going with this. I don’t doubt my will, but I do doubt my bodies’ ability to do what I ask of it. haha.

5 more days!