The good, the bad, and the ugly

A new year has begun and I’m already feeling the need to eat healthier and exercise. It has nothing to do with resolutions though. I just ate way too much this last holiday week and my pants feel way too tight.

But hey, whatever works!

I’ve been bad these last few weeks though. I haven’t walked at all (although to be fair – it’s been snowy and icy) and I’ve eaten enough junk to become pre-diabetic. I threw caution to the wind, my friends, and have gained almost 6lbs back in the process.

I started the first day of 2013 at 201lbs. A little disappointing since I was below 200 for the last few months of 2012. I have no one to blame but myself though. And whoever invented chocolate.

Last night I went to bed with resolve and determination. I looked at ‘before’ and ‘after’ pictures of people who have lost weight (Google images – one of my favorite places on the internet!) and drifted off while making a mental grocery list of all the good food I was going to stock up on. I’ve prepared myself for a few hard days of constant hunger, cravings, and headaches. I need to be strict and get my hunger level back down to a normal level and it ain’t gonna be easy. Starting Sunday, David and I will be doing a calorie-restricted diet. After the first week of this, we will start adding calories until we’ve reached a good point of losing weight and eating. I don’t want to deprive our bodies of any essential vitamins and nutrients and we definitely don’t want to starve ourselves, so this will be a trial and error kind of thing.

What about Weight Watchers? We will go back to counting points sometime in the future, but right now it’s not drastic enough to get us the weight loss we want. I loved the fact that I could eat pizza, chocolate, etc, on WW, but I learned after a while that I have no limits with that kind of stuff. I need to try something that will keep me away from my favorite meals until I can learn to control my eating again.

Another motivation is the 5K I promised my friend I would do. Looks like we will be doing the Color Run in Tulsa on April 20^th. I can’t even run one mile right now, so yeah, I need to get my butt in gear. I’ve been commissioned to do a lot of paintings lately, which is awesome, but having free time to exercise seems almost impossible. I might need to start waking up earlier. Ugh.

So yeah, Caitrin ended the year on a bad note. But that doesn’t mean I need to screw things up for 2013. I can turn this around. It’s not too late. This can be my year of victory. J