I now have an audience. EEK!

I skipped my walk yesterday and I can’t believe how guilty I feel about it. I promise I wasn’t being lazy, I just finally slept good that night and I wanted to get as much of that good sleep as possible. My brain punished me though. All day long I was hungry and tired. My pants even felt tighter. How dumb. I made up for it this morning though. I even walked longer than I had planned – although it wasn’t intentional. I got lost in the neighborhood I was walking in lol.

So today is food day here at work. We have one food day a month. Today the theme is sandwiches. I signed up to bring diet coke – I don’t cook or bake. And I’m cheap. I’m not exactly sure what I’ll eat today. Hopefully someone brought a fruit tray.  Dieting on food day sucks.

I finally invited some people to look at my blog. It didn’t bother me that no one reads my blog. I write these things for myself and let me tell you, I’m a good listener. But it all comes down to accountability and truth. If I have an audience, I will be more likely to succeed with my weight loss. And knowing people are reading these posts will keep me more honest. I feel like my weight has been an issue that I’ve tried hiding in the closet, pretending it isn’t important and that no one sees it. But now is the time for honesty and I can no longer ignore what is literally the biggest problem in my life.

I was scared to have my friends read my blog. A lot of these guys live in other areas of the country and haven’t seen me in awhile. I could have just kept up my charade that life is great and that I look great and haven’t gained 75lbs in ten years, but I no longer see the point. I think a lot of people struggle with their weight and maybe revealing the true me will inspire others to no longer ignore their weight issues either.

Anyways, what’s done is done. These words will be read, or not, and they might inspire, or not, but I feel like I have taken the next step in this journey of mine (admitting I have a problem lol) and that kind of makes this new life style change a little more real. There’s nothing like baring your soul to a bunch of people and openly talking about your most embarrassing problem. God bless the internet.